My tears fall down
a puddle forms.
My dreams feel shot
my mind is worn.
This torment I have
it slowly breaks me inside.
This is my life
from which I can not hide.
I try to get out
but i'm trapped in the pain.
I fear that things will always stay the same.
I'm waiting for my turn
but will it ever come?
I want to get out, but I can no longer run.
I fear i'll be alone for the rest of my life
and have no one with me to make me happy inside.
I have nothing to gain and nothing to give.
But such is my life, and all I can do is live.
She walked down the path, feeling more alone then ever,
her bare feet all dirty, she didn't care about the weather.
She didn't want to be in this life, she didn't care what anyone thought
Nothing seemed to matter no more, this battle must no longer be fought.
But as she was walking he spoke to her and told her that he cared,
and flowers started to bloom again,
suddenly she wasn't as scared.
He slowly took her by the hand and walked her down a path,
they walked on silently hand in hand, and she could no longer feel her own wrath.
They didn't have to say a word, they could read each others minds
and it no longer mattered where the path went or
(Part of a song written for a contest on Mike Shinoda's blog from Linkin Park. Related to the tragedies in Japan.)
it's time's like this that we must join together
show the world that we can handle it, no matter the weather.
To see these people, nothing left, nothing gained
while there's people in their home's playing video games.
When all around them is devastation and pain
as their watching their TV and eating chips as it plays
But this can be beat
we can all make a change
Instead of turning our backs we can all face the same
Remember that it doesn't have to be the end
we can make a new beginning and start over again.
Chorus:
When life
Times are changing fast, I miss your smile, I miss your laugh
I wish that you could be here with us all
I wish none of this would have happened at all
I think back on the memories the good and the bad
I wonder when Ill ever stop feeling so sad
I wonder if Ill ever understand
I wonder if it was all a part of your plan
I wish there was something we could do to make this right
What we wouldnt give to have you one more day in our life
I know you were sick now your no longer in pain
You dont have to hide your face, you no longer have to hide your pain.
But weve got to be strong, you would have wanted it thi
I am done with it all
Don't even care if I fall.
My emotions built up
hiding behind this big wall.
Nobody cares, so why should I
Why should I have to worry
live out this lie?
My brain runs around in circles
not knowing what to do.
The fear of loosing consumes me
I no longer know what to choose.
Cause everything I do
I always seem to fail.
No matter what I do
loosing always prevails.
and I just wanna run away
run away from it all.
I just wanna break free
and tear down the big wall.
Story Of My Life -
Wake up each day, not knowing who you are
when you look in the mirror, can you see your face
bruised and broken, everthings always hard
concealing the wound, as you hide it from the world
It's the Story of My Life
the things that never seem to go right
It's my failed attempt to fight
Forgetting the things I used to like
It's me searching for something within
something that ceases to exist
it's my world full of mistakes
the story of my life
When you go outside, do they know you exist
or do they walk right past you, pretend your not even there
hurting inside, you try to put up a fight
but whats the use in tryi
My War
Devastating
You are the one who deserted me
You left me standing there alone, I couldn't believe
Why
Would you do something like that to me
What did I do to deserve your cruelty
Chours:
This is my War
This is my suicide
This is my hate
thats all bottled up inside
This is my battle
This is my sweet revenge
This is my begining
and this is your end
Change
Is that what you wanted
You took everything i've ever had away from me
Fight
Get up and take your stand
Or be the coward that you are and run away as planned
(Chours)
Lie
It's what you do best eachday
Feeding me false things that you cannot explain
Shame
Is wha
Because Of You
I try to forget the days of the wasted times I spent with you.
Im trying to forget the memories, of anything we ever did.
But somehow I just can't seem to get you out of my head.
All the lies that you told, come back and haunt me again.
Everything you've ever said to me was nothing but a lie.
And now I can't get rid of you, no matter how hard I try.
You've taken everything from me and left me with nothing inside.
Chours:
Because of you
Im standing Here all alone
Because of you
I now have no place to go
Because of you
Theres nothing left in my life
Nothing but broken pieces full of heartach and strife.
I'm tryin
Far Away Dream
I can't pretend anymore, i'm not the same person that I used to be.
And I feel so alone, so affraid of what's to come of me.
Cause I can't hide this pain anymore, it's getting to hard to bare
And I scream, in my dreams, wishing that someone would take
me away from here.
Chours:
As I lie awake, these thoughts cloud my head
weighing me down, keeping me up
I sit here and wonder, of how things would be
if I were away from here in a far away dream
but my mind brings me back, and takes away all my dreams
and I wonder how life would be, if I wasn't me
leaving me empty, it's the story of me
All my life i've been searching
My tears fall down
a puddle forms.
My dreams feel shot
my mind is worn.
This torment I have
it slowly breaks me inside.
This is my life
from which I can not hide.
I try to get out
but i'm trapped in the pain.
I fear that things will always stay the same.
I'm waiting for my turn
but will it ever come?
I want to get out, but I can no longer run.
I fear i'll be alone for the rest of my life
and have no one with me to make me happy inside.
I have nothing to gain and nothing to give.
But such is my life, and all I can do is live.
She walked down the path, feeling more alone then ever,
her bare feet all dirty, she didn't care about the weather.
She didn't want to be in this life, she didn't care what anyone thought
Nothing seemed to matter no more, this battle must no longer be fought.
But as she was walking he spoke to her and told her that he cared,
and flowers started to bloom again,
suddenly she wasn't as scared.
He slowly took her by the hand and walked her down a path,
they walked on silently hand in hand, and she could no longer feel her own wrath.
They didn't have to say a word, they could read each others minds
and it no longer mattered where the path went or
(Part of a song written for a contest on Mike Shinoda's blog from Linkin Park. Related to the tragedies in Japan.)
it's time's like this that we must join together
show the world that we can handle it, no matter the weather.
To see these people, nothing left, nothing gained
while there's people in their home's playing video games.
When all around them is devastation and pain
as their watching their TV and eating chips as it plays
But this can be beat
we can all make a change
Instead of turning our backs we can all face the same
Remember that it doesn't have to be the end
we can make a new beginning and start over again.
Chorus:
When life
Picture
Red covers the scars
an empty hole takes over the wounds
black covers most of the painting, it shows the hate I have for you
Green is painted for your greed, everything you ever did was for you
this painting can never be happy, and nothing will ever be true
Chours:
this painting is for you
it's a picture of what we've been through
it's of all the nothing thats left in my life
it shows nothing but heartach and strife
this picture is of you, I painted it for you
Blue is in the background, it symbolizes your cold cold heart
and red appears again, it brings out the anger from within
white will cover your face, expressions bl
All these people look at you
there wanting you to change.
But you don't mean a thing to them
it's only for their gain.
Feeding you excuses and some lies to entertain.
Watching you and lauging as you throw it all away.
Chours:
But i've----, had enough of this
I won't do what you say.
This time I won't give in
fuck conformity.
I want to live my life
the way I want it to be.
And why do I have to listen to what you say
fuck conformity.
Religion trying to draw you in
they want you to believe.
Teachers trying to letcure you
telling you how you should be.
Feeding you excuses and some lies along the way.
And throwing all these ru
Mistakes
Who are you to tell me what to do,
i'm tired of you making up my mind for me.
and I'll never be good enough for you,
so why do I even bother trying.
It's as if you never cared for me,
all along you've been lying.
and I try so hard to deal with it all
but inside i'm slowly dying.
Chours:
Fuck it all, forget this life
you don't care, so why should I
it's gone way too far, I can't hide this anymore
inside my world I slowly die
alone inside, no one hears my cries
in a world so cold, thats full of lies
Mistakes I make, the story of my life.
dragged down by the pain, everythings the same.
And all this hate I seem to keep
separated from my life
you've isolated me from the world.
destroyed by your pain
you've left me with nothing to gain
invisible and unseen
my life is overlooked
ignored everytime I speak
memories haunting me everyday of the week'
confused with what I should do
contemplating to live or to die
to suffer from this eternal pain
or live the rest of my life in shame
Emotions going crazy
as I try to tame my rage
frustrated by my anger
I havent slept in days.
Clouded by my thoughts
as I sit alone and cry
too much time has gone by
should I end my life now, should I die?
Now it's time for the decision, that I am suddenly forced to m
Never satisfied with what you get, you always needed more
it's never good enough for you
Hiding from the fears you have, complaining of what you never had
as you run away from your problems
drowning in a pool of your own greed, assuming everyone will just concede
when truthfully they really don't agree...
Chours:
Keep on lying, every lie is just another gain for me
Keep on denying, your words they mean nothing to me
Why bother trying, when you know that you've already lost
Stop implying, cause now it's over i'm defying, you
Everyday is the same thing, you think you know it all
and you go threw life without a care.
Living life as
Far Away Dream
I can't pretend anymore, i'm not the same person that I used to be.
And I feel so alone, so affraid of what's to come of me.
Cause I can't hide this pain anymore, it's getting to hard to bare
And I scream, in my dreams, wishing that someone would take
me away from here.
Chours:
As I lie awake, these thoughts cloud my head
weighing me down, keeping me up
I sit here and wonder, of how things would be
if I were away from here in a far away dream
but my mind brings me back, and takes away all my dreams
and I wonder how life would be, if I wasn't me
leaving me empty, it's the story of me
All my life i've been searching
Because Of You
I try to forget the days of the wasted times I spent with you.
Im trying to forget the memories, of anything we ever did.
But somehow I just can't seem to get you out of my head.
All the lies that you told, come back and haunt me again.
Everything you've ever said to me was nothing but a lie.
And now I can't get rid of you, no matter how hard I try.
You've taken everything from me and left me with nothing inside.
Chours:
Because of you
Im standing Here all alone
Because of you
I now have no place to go
Because of you
Theres nothing left in my life
Nothing but broken pieces full of heartach and strife.
I'm tryin
Life is Pleasent
Life is but as pleasant game,
Shining stars, the hall of fame;
You live your life, child, teen, and adult,
made the mistakes, its your broken fault;
It started then, many ions ago,
The light of mankind, beginning to glow;
Too young to live but too old to die,
With its beauty, never to cry;
Existance as one, its playing through our lives,
Like moon around our earth, to how it relies;
Its an endless void, from the dawn of our time,
a mistake perhaps? or commitment of crime?
An open mind as our nations united,
Blindness of mankind, so everly sighted;
The dark tranquillity, tortured thy be,
a broken
Our Beginning and Your End
From day one, until the end,
Tellin' you, not to offend..
If I do, try not to worry,
when I do, I wont be sorry..
If I hurt you, revenge'll be served,
when I hurt you, will be well deserved..
You hurt me so much, done all in the past,
blinded by love, and a spell well cast..
If I could change one thing, it would be overdue,
it was my only secret, if only you knew..
see, for a while, I wanted to tell you,
What I'd want, 'I wish I never met you..'
Just remember now, I wont talk on the phone,
Dont care anymore, that you feel all alone..
Its not your fault, that I am going this way,
Im sorry, I hate you,
Emotions fuel my writing and once again bring me back here to Deviant art. My most favorite tool is my mind, a pencil and a blank sheet of paper, while the soft instrumental tunes play on in the background and the words pour out on the paper….
I'm back! The last time I submitted something on here was back in 2004. After then the site was lost and forgotten until tonight when I stumbled upon it again! So what's going on people?
finally back online...my computer was having problems as well as my car. I had about 50 messages on this thing and I am now trying to sort threw it all!
Thanks, and thanks for comming and checking out my songs. All my songs seem to turn out to be very emotional. I need to try and write more happy songs ...lol